I have jealousy issues. Always have probably always will. I see people having a good time and I automatically get all jealous like I wish I could be in there with them. Or I would be much better than her if I had gotten that part in the play.  Like today for instance I am working on swallowing my jealousy of people that are performing in the local drama groups play. I had wanted to be in it this but I wasn't so I could o a missions trip this summer. I was seriously torn this spring between which one I wanted to do. I almost decided to go with the theater group, but decided against on the fact that the trip was a once in a lifetime opportunity and I could always be in the drama group next year.

            Well now we are moving and I can't, but oh well I will have to survive. swallow all this animosity that is creeping up on me. I will go to the play and try t be happy for people I am feeling jealous of. I know I have jealousy and I get jealous of what other people have and look like and do and just about everything. I suppose what I need to do is count my blessings and be grateful for what I have.